rain & night & loneliness

love night, love rain and love wind! especially all put together!
sitting on the 4th floor windowsill at the opened window. letting wind touch my face and caress my skin. in those moments feeling alive. feeling alive as coldness sneaks through the veins all over the body. "Sometimes she feels so sad, Other times feels twice as bad". perfect music for a perfect sleepless night. one of hundreds.
feeling of freedom. feeling i cud fly if just id step of the windowsill . rain hitting ground, hitting leaves and hitting stretched palm outside. "Wish I, were different.But I'm a stranger in the world."
welcome to my night

I know him so well

Nothing is so good it lasts eternally
Perfect situations must go wrong
But this has never yet prevented me
Wanting far too much for far too long.
Looking back I could have played it differently
Won a few more moments who can tell
But it took time to understand the man
Now at least I know I know him well

Wasn't it good?
Wasn't he fine?
Isn't it madness
He can't be mine?

But in the end he needs
A little bit more than me --
More security
I know him so well.

No one in your life is with you constantly
No one is completely on your side
And though I move my world to be with him
Still the gap between us is too wide.

Looking back I could
Have played it differently
Learned about the man before I fell

But I was Ever so much
Younger then Now at least
I know I know him well

Wasn't it good?
Wasn't he fine?
Isn't it madness
He won't be mine?
Didn't I know
How it would go?
If I knew from the start
Why am I falling apart?

Wasn't it good?
Wasn't he fine?
Isn't it madness
He won't be mine?

But in the end he needs a
Little bit more than me --
More security
I know him so well

It took time to understand him

I know him so well