butterfly effect

such a strange feeling that you are somewhere else then you physically now. or even the feeling that you aren't anywhere at all. feelings some clock fingers counting seconds inside you and hearing loud empty click of them somewhere inside your body like in empty church.

you see time flowing away. you are afraid not to do what you have to do in time. and in the same time having apathy to do anything to make it up. like its not you. like you are just a emotionless viewer behind the other side of glass.

rush. such a rush that you forget yourself. forget the most important things in your life. just run. run somewhere. run after something. run from something else. run. without a stop. rush to sleep. rush to the year which comes next. rush for things you might never get. rush for dreams that might stay just dreams. and not coz you haven't done a lot, but coz they depend on somebody else equally much.

letters on the paper. although just virtual one. soundless breath. click.