deep silence

sometimes you are surrounded with such silence that you can hear your brain cells working and sending impulses, you hear your thoughts moving through your body and stucking in mind.
sometimes you look outside the window, see lonely streets, snow all everywhere, cars standing at the roadside, latern lights and no alive beings. you look outside in the night and feel like time has stopped. like there is infinity from beginning of the minute till its last second.
sometimes you feel like you are in wrong place and you should be somewhere else.
just a week left here in old flat. how old can flat be in which you`re living just half year. feel somehow sick from changing flats that often. maybe coz im doing that alone.
packing things, chaos, new place and new ways to usual places.
maybe its hard to move somewhere when you know that its not gonna be home for you. just a place to stay. for a while. till you`ll be able to be with person besides whom is your home.
one more thing discovered once more about myself - i work better in extreme situations.
even if i have some time to do something i`ll do that in the last moment [unless thats something i really really like or its important for me]. adrenalin? or just my craziness? let it be a secret of "trade-mark".
still surrounded by silence and listening to thoughts hitting walls of mind.